90's best animated

Hi! I'm digging the old successful series of MTV in the 90s ( it's rare!) Daria. It's much shorter in episode time than any human- acting series but longer in so-called season time. I've seen a lot of my thought in it. I like both Daria and Jane. I like their attitudes. And those idiocy around them, too. First day I watched straight 12 episodes of season 1 and hastily ended up with a thought: Here they are, all of them, I see. But they did not stay like that eventually. Every body changed, life changed, things turn out to be like nothing you can plan it to be. I cannot predict, too. Haha.

Have to say: Jane Lane and his brother Trent are cool!

The real grungies.

By the way, a quick summary about my life these days: I'm getting better, drowning in assignments ( again) but I enjoy it, working on my wedding gown (I mean, my wedding gown assignment hehe) and start producing my first menswear collection for Design research class. Excited! So I decide to give me more free time in saturday night and watching more Daria. Even I have Oil painting class tomorrow. That's enough. I'll see ya.

HANGOVER

I had never known what HANGOVER is until yesterday. It is terribly awful! I couldn't stand up straight in 5 minutes, not to mention that I could not eat anything without puking. I missed the oil painting class yesterday morning, too (It was supposed to be at my house) and spent 2.5/3 day on coach/bed. I move between my bathroom and my bed most of the time. The lesson is: should not change your plan at the last minute to go to some bars with friends and use the mix of vodka-orangina after already had 2 beers. Thanks God, my sanity still intact to lead me to my house and did not puke until I got into my bed. TERRIBLE. AWFUL.

If a friendship makes you feel insecure, then leave it before it drown. I have many ships, but sometime I have to neglect somes, or all.

Sometime I feel craziness in my heart. Crazy is a kind of broken into fragment that you cannot find all the pieces to make a puzzle. Because there will always be 1 or 2 missing. Or more. Will you be considered as promiscuos. They will send you to the rehab. You try to runaway but keep coming back. Because you're dead. You're dead.

Break term is now!

What do you feel when a story ends? To me, it feels like an unkempt mixtape that retain in my head, in which I want to get rid of on one hand and keep it as a memory on the other hand. I would, let say, watch it over if I can't deal with the ending, or looking for similar stories (whose authors or characters are the same) and lately deal with it if that ending is better.

Yesterday I watched "What's eating Gilbert Grape". I like Arnie, the retarded kid played by Leonardo diCaprio. His play gives the whole story a great tie that gradually urging the feeling in the main character, that he would succumb to his dead end life and run away and in the end, he also is the one that open the tie, and the story ends. The rhythm of the movie is quite slow, sometime it's boring, too. But I cannot press the stop button if I still yet can get it. The lesson is: be patient, haste would ruin your emotions.

I, to be honest, seldom watch TV series on TV. Most of the time I download from the Internet and enjoy watching it on laptop. I recently come home early in the noon and join my mom on a cheesy Korean series. It's not that bad, even lots of dramas (typical!). And another point is I can talk to mom during the lunch more often. If the world was a deception of humanity and people are artificial of deception, the only person I would trust so far is my mother. Well, I haven't been so good for such a long time.

These days I don't mind hanging out anymore. I'm so isolated. I don't want to meet anybody, encounter in any relationship, get trouble with my own self. I don't feel like exposure this time. I think I need a rest, and enjoy writing to myself.

Oh, so tired ....

I want to be sedated!

Hello diary!

Tomorrow I'll have IELTS examination at 9am.

I've just came back from the shop. I decided not to drop by my facebook's SIM tonight. My Sim is not very different from me, she is quite lonely. The only thing she can do now is gaining skills at cooking, writing, playing music and painting. Isn't it good?

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I finished watching My so-called life yesterday night. I watched it over this noon. After doing many tough tests. Just for entertaining. I don't want to leave that world. That is so called life. Because I don't have enough dare to confront my real life? Because It's too much an artificial world? Because people are going downward? Because life is being ruined? Um... questioning myself is quite not a practical solution for this dead end boredom.

Well,

realizing I'm talking to myself is hilarious. And freed up. I write for myself, yes I do, I don't need any people to follow me. But sincerely I'll be grateful if you ( who ever are reading) can share your point of view, I always open to talk.

ISOLATION

ok, I'm officially into DIET now! I was delving into lots of diet recipes before going to bed last night. I genuinely quit smoking and drinking 3 months ago. So do the gym. And now my thighs are getting bigger . What a sad story! First time in my life I realize how important leggings are, and even wearing leggings does not satisfy me. Since this term started, I've had to stay up really late ( or stay up all night) so I lost almost energy and that makes me feel like eating every time. (There was a mini fashion show last week that I had to show up in public and, unfortunately, one of my classmate took a picture of me, and, you know, I saw me looking terrible in those boots, my legs are growing fat!)

Besides, I'm going to have the most important examination in this year this Saturday. Really nervous! I afraid I will not have enough consciousness to finish it. I planned to travel to Hongkong next week but I'm too nervous that I have to cancel every thing and isolate myself from friends.

Among the things, I don't want to meet some certain people, do I. I'm fed up with staying silently watching their stories and have nothing to say but being sympathy. Well, I need a break, I really do. I have so much things to deal with in my life. I'm not angel. I don't give loves to everyone.

So....

I'll finish the series tonight. Cannot stop keeping my eyes on them! I'll watch it again in the upcoming weeks. I have to get back to my English practice tests now, one more day to the IELTS! Wish me luck, who ever you are!

Cookies no?

I realize if I'm not sure of anything I will postpone it until I get the answer. I grows old rigid and pesky. Like an old woman sitting by the window and waiting for fascinated things. People ask me to compromise, even I sometime ask myself to compromise. I cannot impose on other people's life. It would hurt them badly if I said rough. On the other hand, they would ruin my believes.

My friends, I cherish them as long as they are my friends. I should seal my mouth more often and trying sympathize.