I, I close my door at night. But they get in alright. And he turns on the light.
....
I do it if I could, I hope you know I would. 

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Once upon a time ...
There lived a girl who has a fragile heart that carry it all over world. She left her motherland to pursue a nowhere aim which is as livid as a sudden star far far away. She listens to the rhythm deep down in her heart and sings a floating melody.
But she doesn't know how to pour it out. On every place she steps, there's a signal that given to her, and she lost it right away when it's almost reached by her. Then she left a fragment of her heart to every doorman of the place she was, before getting lost again.
She runs away from herself. 

This Year song

They were 3 years ahead when they released this song. I don't know if there was any relation to the movie named 2012, I have never watched it even it was one of the commercial bombard movie in that year. Anw, this song is belonged to the The Gossip's album in 2009, which has a so-so sound and quality and forget-able rhythm, except for this song. Maybe Beth Ditto is now considered as one of the era Fashion icon. To me, she's a fine lady, that's all. But the latest editorial I've seen of her on some magazine (don't remember) posed with a buff slimy blondie guy, that makes me nausea. Thanks for the fashion industry, they bring up all the weirdest things altogether, included those creations named Lady Gaga and Nicki MiNaj. Weird is a trend now. That is so sell-out! Being weird is way much too sell-out! And fashion supports it. Fashion is sell-out, too.
Geez, World is turning up-side down. I hope my CD shelves won't fall off the ground.

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I've been living outlaw for so long,
Six months have gone and left it so wrong
My ego is urging constantly, yet another rhythm beats that strong
Oh Righty righty right, suddenly give me a shiver when I think of night,
afraid of being released and trigger my own fire.
Will be there a flame that I ashamed
can't be tamed as a wild youth
and drink my own damn fear down the throat
You would never have chance to see the flow.
Oh Welly welly well, if I ever care of tomorrow
dressing like an old dying witch, looking up the sky with my slimy eyes
livid tone it's giving me, nails to me, scratch me, drown me

The picture of James Iha is just perfectly match to the mood of my random writing right now. Actually I've been digging the mood that unintentionally been showed on his face. Actually I don't intend to write anything but leave some words to live up my blog. Nevermind! 

Cry baby cry

I really miss you, really really, my blogspot!

I spent most of the time today pouring out. I was so touching. I can't stop thinking of the book The Thorn birds, with their lively characters as they were real, and then I watched its mini series they made in 1983. I found happiness in watching movie, drawing and reading. I'm escaping from the real world, literally.

These days are like war time. Students are showing their voices, making lots of conferences and questioning the school, due to the breakout which has stir up all the press and media since the first week of 2012. No one has their mind in studying, the general topics when I step into the class is "When will we receive the school's official answer","Should we stay or should we go" (Sorry, the song of Clash is so right rite now), "Will we receive our money", ... The only reason that push me up to classes is the new teacher is so helpful and never talk about the event. So, I decide to have one more class this term. Besides school time, I'll be home with full of work to do. Anything can keep me busy!

I also discovered my comfort zone in the headphone. Firstly, I can hear the sound which is disappear when using laptop speaker. Secondly, besides music, I can't hear nothing. That's an advantage. At least I can focus more.

90's best animated

Hi! I'm digging the old successful series of MTV in the 90s ( it's rare!) Daria. It's much shorter in episode time than any human- acting series but longer in so-called season time. I've seen a lot of my thought in it. I like both Daria and Jane. I like their attitudes. And those idiocy around them, too. First day I watched straight 12 episodes of season 1 and hastily ended up with a thought: Here they are, all of them, I see. But they did not stay like that eventually. Every body changed, life changed, things turn out to be like nothing you can plan it to be. I cannot predict, too. Haha.

Have to say: Jane Lane and his brother Trent are cool!

The real grungies.

By the way, a quick summary about my life these days: I'm getting better, drowning in assignments ( again) but I enjoy it, working on my wedding gown (I mean, my wedding gown assignment hehe) and start producing my first menswear collection for Design research class. Excited! So I decide to give me more free time in saturday night and watching more Daria. Even I have Oil painting class tomorrow. That's enough. I'll see ya.

HANGOVER

I had never known what HANGOVER is until yesterday. It is terribly awful! I couldn't stand up straight in 5 minutes, not to mention that I could not eat anything without puking. I missed the oil painting class yesterday morning, too (It was supposed to be at my house) and spent 2.5/3 day on coach/bed. I move between my bathroom and my bed most of the time. The lesson is: should not change your plan at the last minute to go to some bars with friends and use the mix of vodka-orangina after already had 2 beers. Thanks God, my sanity still intact to lead me to my house and did not puke until I got into my bed. TERRIBLE. AWFUL.